Being Twenty-Something

My office mate forwarded me this striking composition. I really don't have any idea who wrote this one but then again I salute him/her for writing this. I really can relate to the max!hehe. When I was reading the whole thing, I smiled 'coz I realize something.. indeed, I'm not alone! There's someone who's feeling exact thing I'm feeling these days.. So if you're 20-something, might as well read this.. I swear it's worth the time!

Being Twenty-Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when
you stop going along with the crowd and start
realizing that there are many things about yourself
that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where
you will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were close to aren't exactly the greatest people
you have ever met, and the people you have lost
touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you don't recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or
insincere but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close
to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe
you are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom, and that
scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see
what others are doing and find yourself judging
more than usual because suddenly you realize
that you have certain boundaries in your life and
are constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are
insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of
your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and
you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but
soon realize that the past is drifting further and
further away, and there is nothing to do but stay
where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to
know better. Or maybe you love someone but love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you know that you aren't a
bad person.

One-night-stands and random hook-ups start to
look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an
idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the
same emotions and questions over and over, and
talk with your friends about the same topics
because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself... and while winning the
race would be great, right now you'd just like to be
a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone
reading this relates to it. We are in our best of
times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure this whole thing out.

That Beautiful Sunday

It was a long sunday.. but I definitely loved every single minute of it! So here's my ever awesome Sunday.. read and be enthralled!hehe

Mass at Lourdes Parish Church. I woke up at exactly 8 in the morning. It felt nice waking up knowing that there'll be a good day ahead of me. Anyways, knowing me (with all my rituals..haha), I had to double my time since the mass will start at 9:15am. FYI: We actually had this mass as a sign of our gratitude for all the prayers heard and wishes granted. Though we already revisited mostly of the churches we had during our Visita Iglesia prior to the board exam but yah know, it's still different when you offer a mass. That mass was also offered to our mates who'll also be taking the nursing board examination this coming Nov. 1&2 (seriously, they really need our prayers). Last week, invitations were sent to many of the successful June takers but sadly only a few made it to the mass. But I completely understand 'coz frankly speaking, many of us are already restricted by schedules that we aren't totally in control and not to mention the fact that many of our mates are now situated at their own provinces.. but I know in time.. one specific time in the future, all of us will see each other..will have a good long talk and laugh at those times of struggling and desperation!haha On the brighter side, surprisingly, our mates (Nov. takers) were also there to attend the mass. I could see the look of anxiety in their faces. I know how it feels coz I was once there and no matter how we convince them not to think much of the exam? It isn't gonna work 'coz we all know that the exam is risky.. and it's only sorted into two options - "the pass and fail buttons" and that mere fact gives chills to people who are about to take the board exam.

The Quick Huddle. After the mass, we decided to have a quick meeting regarding our plan to have our victory party. We all know that it's quite late already and it has been 48yrs since we passed the board but we still believe that we should have one.. that we deserve one! Sadly :-( , as mentioned above, people already have tight schedules and for that reason.. the planned party, as of now, is still very foggy. But personally? I really want this party to carry on 'coz this might be our last chance to see each other. The next one will be.. I really don't have any idea! Maybe 'yes' and maybe 'never again'.. but still I wish I know..",

At Jovel's Crib. At around 12pm, we left the church's premises and went to Jovel's place at Lapu2x and gatecrashed the birthday banquet of her sister. Indeed, the long travel (jeepney, ferryboat, and tricycle) was worth it. The food was superb and seriously! I was very full! We owed that to Jovel's mom!hehe After that great lunch, we stayed at Jovel's room and chitchatted about our recent updates in life.. about the working progress of our nursing career (which is by the way, stagnated as ever!hehe) and lots of stuffs that we missed out on each other. Seriously, we missed each other's company (te rodz, yan2x, che2x, jovel, and alin).

EcoTech. After visiting Jovel's place, we directly rode same public transportations mentioned above and went to the place where we used to have our in-house review. As we entered Ecotech, some sort of memories flashed back but I chose not to entertain them 'coz I'll only end up hurting myself from recollecting those happy, funny, and down moments inside the ecotech. In lieu to that, I greeted my friends whom I know are suffering from one of the greatest anxieties in their life. I offered some piece of advice but still I urged them to do it their way. i know for sure that no words can ever describe what they are feeling right now.. if they could only skip these days, certainly they would! But what they need right now are prayers! For in prayers, all things are possible!

Faithful Deceit

Faithful Deceit

by: Conz6th

My world has stopped

and it's freezin' cold

My haven of sweet mornings

turned to desolated empty spaces

I fly but still I fall

I breathe just to suffocate

I live but I was deceived

°

Maybe I was overly assuming

that the world intertwines with me

I reckoned it would cry along

For it used to laugh with me

Maybe it was wrong from the start

To expect a clown to frown

Or to wait on a desert for rain to pour down

º

Many are destined to fall

but not all are fated to be caught

Some are bequeathed with beauty

but must undergo a lot of pain

Some aren't gifted with glamour

but still had nothing to begin

Life is unfair, it has always been.

°

I had to fall to recognize pain

I had to bleed just for me to be certain

that life isn't always about it's glamorous façade

and it is behind those beaming masks

where the look of grief and bitterness

are hidden to conceal the past

°

People learn but still get dumb

We long for something we always have

Many of us fight but still we struggle

For this never ending quest and battle

between pretense and validity, lie and proximity

°

Which is which? We often ask

But in this hazy world that we live in

No wonder why no one is presumed to be certain

Sarah and Rayver- No Air

I just wanna share this. This prod. number is good.