The Harlequin

THE HARLEQUIN

By: Conz6th

They called him the harlequin

Many thought he didn’t know how to frown

His life was full of jokes, antics and funny acts

When he did those old tricks in a circus

Everyone can’t help but laughed and be amused

He always wore that flawless smile

Lived a seemingly perfect life

But no one in the world had the tinge of idea

That he was a man with a happy face

But with a burdened soul

The curving of his mouth, he never faked

As much as real when he cried at the backstage

Oh Yes! Believe it or not, he shed tears

And no one was there to comfort him

He seemed to be fine, all because of his grin

Ironically, he then forgot how to smile

Funny how a clown failed to remember

A very simple reflex of laughing

Funny how it suddenly slipped in his mind

That all expected him to be the harlequin

After that festive mode inside the carnival

When all the laughs of mirth and delight

Have turned into an extremely loud silence

The clown then decided to go home

Inside that poor lighted box he thought he belonged

He was fated to make everybody happy

But was cursed to live life in contrast to what he does best

The only person who gave what he didn’t have

And who rarely got what he truly deserved

The master entertainer… he was the harlequin.

Turned 21

I just turned 21 last Wednesday, March 11, 2009. One year older and one year younger at heart!haha But seriously, this "adulthood" thing scares me a bit. You just don't turn a year older and that's it! Of course the society expects a lot from you. It expects you to be more responsible as an adult citizen. Your family also expects you to be more matured in dealing with things that you used to throw tantrums on. My brother from Dubai called me up and greeted me a happy birthday. He jested me with my age and said that I'm not a teenager anymore!haha And that kind of rang a bell.. hey boy! welcome to the world of adulthood!

I do admit that it feels great to be an adult. You go home late and you don't get yelled for doing so. You get to go in far places without fearing from being grounded when you arrive home. You already have your own money (the one you worked hard for) simply because a certain employer trusts you a lot by giving you a job.  You get to have your own share of help in the family and trust me, the feeling is marvelous! Most of all, you get to choose what you think is best for you though others may object but the best thing about it is that you can now fight what you truly think is right.

But what gives me cold feet about turning a year older? It's the responsibilities that are also growing up along with me. It's the fact that it's not already wise to mess around 'coz unlike Benjamin Button, I grow older each day. I also fear losing grip on my own dreams and the person that I want to be in future. And it gets harder when certain things arise and you're left with no choice but to sacrifice. Yes, it's true! At this point of my life, choice is a privilege but it creeps me out in a way. I worry about choosing the wrong moves and end up living my life with what ifs and what could have beens.

I just turned 21 and that's just two years apart from being a teenager but then again it's two years distant from being twenty-four. I can never say if I matured or what because I still have that foolish and unruly side of me (or maybe it's already part of me). As of now, I feel like I'm only given two options: be irresponsible or responsible? And I want to choose the latter. Like what they say, "Growing old is mandatory but growing up is optional".

Chillin' @ Mt. View

February 28, 2009

Mountain View Nature' s Park, Cebu

The place was cold as ever but it didn't hinder us from enjoying the moment. Mt. View was really cool at night! The panoramic view was superb. The place and the friends I was with were both amazing! That night was full of laughters and reminiscing - our High school life and our classmates back then.

Looking at the pics, I realized that our friendship have really came a long way. But it's nice to know that we have maintained that special and sincere friendship even if we barely see each other now. I really appreciate the thought of still having them as my friends up until now. These people are my closest peers back at High School but our friendship didn't end at graduation day. We may not see each other as often as before but we know in our hearts that we're keeping the friendship for the rest of our lives!