Goodbye

Monday, February 23, 2009

Goodbye
By: Conz6th

Was I sleeping when you left?
Or wide awake but just didn’t mind
Were you feeling the same thing?
‘coz when I heard you locked the door
My heart was shattered on the floor

I was hoping you’d say goodbye
But you never uttered a single word
Not that I compelled you to do it
But I just needed something to hear
Regardless if I can still bear

Would it really matter?
And would it even change a single thing?
The saying of goodbyes and see you again
All of those could only mean the same
When you left, I was in pain

But how could you go
Without even saying so
And how can you leave
When I’m starting to believe
That there’s a chance for you and me

I guess you know me better
That I hated farewell and goodbyes
I bet you don’t want to see tears falling
To see me once again breaking
I closed my eyes, you went away

Now I’m left alone on my bed
Hugging this pillow, smelling your scent
Now that we’re oceans apart
No one can ever mend this broken heart
I opened my eyes… and then you’re gone.


I Just Need Time

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I'm still not okay. I may be recuperating in so many ways but I'm still not okay. The wounds may have disappeared but the scars are still there. I'm a keloid-former and so is my heart. The rate of my pain may have grown gradually less but it never subsided. I already told you so many times that I'm not so good with movin' on. Aside from doing math, it's one of the things I struggle dealing with. I may be smiling a lot but I bet you will never understand why I still frown inside. I still hope and I wonder why I still do! Maybe because I loved you so much that it wrecked my brain until it lost its capacity to think clearly.. to choose wisely.. and to decide fairly. Do you think I'm over you? I also thought. Do you think I'm back to my senses? I just wish I am. Do you think I already regained my strength? I usually pretend I did.

Funny how a minute span of 2 weeks affect my life up until now. But I still believe that I just need time. I did promise you. I'll look after you when I'm fine. I'll search you anywhere. I'm still holding on to what I said - "I still wanna keep you as my friend" but not now.. Give me more time to regain everything (though I think it's impossible). Anyway, thank you so much for still believing in our friendship. As of now, I'm doing better each day. I'm a work in progress. I'm doing good but I'm still not the best of me. Soon.. very soon.. I'll be there.

Denise and Sam: Au Revoir!

February 20, 2009

Kuya Sam and Denise

I never really liked the thought of saying Goodbyes. But people find their own ways and they've got their own life too.. it sucks! But that's reality. Last friday, I bade farewell to two of my closest friends at the office.  As expected, I didn't like the thought of it. Denise was my very first friend at Accenture. I really can say that we had the same wavelength so it wasn't really hard to befriend her afterall. Kuya Sam was like the kuya!haha Me and some of my other officemates used to jest him about his age! Well, it's not that he's too old.. but he's the most Kuya in the group!hehe Seriously, I'll miss both of them.

at the Yo-U
at the Yo-U

After office, we went to Yo-U (at mango1) and celebrated our so-called "Farewell Party" for Denise and Kuya Sam. I actually got more close to both of them 'coz we were classmates at our "tagay sessions" haha! That night was so memorable 'coz the whole class list was there (except for Tin2x who resigned a week earlier). I supposed it was the last night to drink beer with the whole gang but I still hoped it wasn't.  Aside from beer, that night was flooded with memories and reminiscing! Our early days at the company and our first impressions toward each other.

To Denise and Kuya Sam,

I didn't like the idea of you guys leaving but I'm also too proud for the both of you! You guys are very courageous to follow your hearts.  Somehow, God had His own beautiful reasons why He crossed our paths. And I couldn't be thankful enough to have a friends like you. Rest assured, all memories will be cherished and bear in mind that once a friend, always a friend!

So long my friends! Au Revoir!!!

The Love of Siam

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Official Movie Poster
Official Movie Poster

From the look of it, one would really think that this movie is another chick flick or a teenybooper perhaps! Well, that's what I thought at first. Last night, I was surfin' youtube and came across the trailer of this Thai movie entitled "The Love of Siam". Again, the trailer (like its poster), seemed to be your another "kilig-to-the-max" teen show. I even thought of it as an Asian version for "High School Musical" but after watching the movie, I was darn wrong!!! There was more to this movie than meets the eye . Unlike any other teen shows wherein the story only revolves around their blossoming romance and how the chase of a boy to a girl excites the viewers - this movie was entirely different. It touched a lot of aspects relating to our present society. It reflected the struggles of a young love and self-identification through discovering oneself. This movie also showed how important a family plays in molding a character of a certain person.

If you have nothing to do (like me last night!) or you simply want some movie trippin' then I suggest this one. I swear your 3hrs will be worth it and you can even end up asking for more! (a sequel for the movie perhaps??hehe)

PRECAUTION: Entries below may contain lots of spoilers. You have every right to continue reading but personally, I encourage you to watch the movie first. Here's the link: "The Love of Siam"

this movie garnered lots of awards as well
this movie garnered lots of awards as well

Ooopps!.. so you opted to continue reading?! Fine! Just enjoy reading regarding the story's characters, scenes, and the way it was delivered.

The Characters: (amazing creation..kudos to the writers)

  • Tong and Mew - The grew up together as childhood bestfriends! But they separated ways during grade school. Tong's family (which used to be very perfect) encountered a huge obstacle when Tang (Tong's sister) didn't go home from a trip with her friends. That problem caused Tong's family to move into another place. They were already in their Seniors (HS) when Tong and Mew met again. Mew then realized that he had this special feelings for his childhood bestfriend. Tong, on the other hand, was having tough decisions on choosing what he really wanted for himself because by then, he too, was falling for his bestfriend.
  • Sunee (Tong's mom)- You will definitely adore her character. You can just imagine a wife who's struggling to fight and stand for her failing marriage and family. You can really taste the pain each time she tries to be strong but in reality, inside she's breaking. Imagine having a son who's about to take an unlikely path (by choosing to be a gay) and having a husband who's depression led to being an alcoholic.
  • KoRn (Tong's father) - He lost the will to live when his daughter Tang never went back home. He used alcohol as a way to escape the sad reality of life. From drinking too much alcohol, he developed Liver problems which also added burden to her wife.
  • Tang/June - June is the manager of Mew's band. She really looked like Tong's lost sister that's why she was offered to do the job of acting as Tang just to make Tong's father inspired with life again.
  • Ying - Mew's neighbor who is head over heels for him to the extent of acting like a stalker. Later on, she realized that Mew is a gay and that he is in love with his bestfriend.
  • Donut - Tong's on and off girlfriend.

My Favorite Scenes (well thought of..)

1. I liked that part when (during childhood days) Tong and Mew were lying on the same bed and about to sleep. Mew realized that Tong was crying (bec. of her sister) and so he reached out and held Tong's hand. It was so innocent and pure.

2. I appreciate the puzzle way of giving gifts.

3. This one struck me the most. The scene wherein Tong's mom was preparing the christmas tree and he chose to help. Tong acted silly by asking her mom again and again on what he should place at the middle of the christmas tree, a boy or a girl doll? He also told his mom that he is afraid to make choices because it might upset her again. Her mom was touched and replied by saying that he should choose the one that can make him happy - he then chose to place the boy doll.

4. The Kissing part!!! Waaaahhhh! They acted so in love! To think they are just teen agers in real life but then they gave out a very deep acting! (Kudos to both of them and the director!). I also liked the way Tong's mother reacted when she saw the kissing part. It was very realistic!

5. When Tong's parents reconciled! It was such a tear jerker!!!

6. Last part of the movie, when Ying and Tong was watching Mew performing on stage at Siam Square. Ying stared at Tong's face that was so fond of watching Mew singing. Another one was when they joined the crowd (holding hands) to get closer to the stage, Ying suddenly let go of Tong's hand and walked away. It was Ying's subtle way of letting go Mew.

7. Lastly, when Tong gave Mew his christmas present. The missing nose of the wooden puppet which Tong gave Mew when they were just kids. That scene was very touching!

To sum it up, the movie was really great! I enjoyed it.. surpassing my mere expectations. I salute the makers of this film! Magnifico!

Julienne Leigh Conde-Valete

when she was jz 3 days old!
when she was jz 3 days old!

She's the newest source of our happiness. She's Julienne Leigh Conde-Valete. My first niece ever!!! (so proud to be an uncle now huh??!hehe) My eldest sister gave birth (via NSVD) to a healthy bouncing baby girl last January 21, 2009 at 5:19pm in Cebu Maternity House. Everyone was just so excited to welcome Leigh as the newest member of our family! Indeed, it felt great to have a new baby at home.

cute Lil' Leigh
cute Lil' Leigh

It's true that a baby is a wonderful gift from the heavens! And we are so thankful for having blessed with a cute little baby. Leigh's presence is like a luminous light that brightens up every single space of our home. Truly, a baby is a symbol of hope, life, and love!